Late on the night of Tuesday, October 4, world-renowned rapper Scott Kid Cudi Mescudi took to Facebook to write a lengthy status regarding his current mental health. The post was anything but light-hearted, delving into the personal hell that has been his life since becoming famous. To summarize, he is “not at peace” and has checked himself into a mental rehabilitation center for depression and suicidal urges.
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“If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself,” Cudi wrote. “I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions every day of my life.”
He went on to explain how depression and extreme anxiety have been strong dictators for the majority of his life, going as far as preventing him from being able to trust others, meet new people, and even leave his house. The post in its entirety can be read below.
From the beginning of the post, Cudi takes on a sense of shame.
“It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed,” Cudi wrote. “Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie.”
By the end, it turns into a heartbreaking letter of sorrow to his fans and loved ones.
“I am sorry if I let anyone down,” Cudi wrote. “I really am sorry. I’ll be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit. I feel so ashamed. I’m sorry.”
Cudi’s bravery to speak out about his illness and his need for help did more than just show us it’s okay to be honest about your hardest times as well as your successes. It sparked an outpour of support of all forms of social media, especially Twitter. Two Twitter users, Dayna Lynn Nuckolls and an anonymous friend that we’ll refer to as @TheCosby, began a thread of support using #YouGoodMan.
The #YouGoodMan twitter thread is still currently trending and is still receiving positive hits every couple of minutes. Peep the video below for a breakdown of just what movement is all about.
— AJ+ (@ajplus) October 7, 2016
The second most important thing about Cudi’s breakthrough, falling short to his bravery, is the acknowledgement of what it’s really like to live with a mental disorder. Society has long written off those who admit to having mental disorders like depression and anxiety as crazy, self-afflicting dysfunctional lunatics. And that doesn’t even include the startling amount of people that don’t even believe that depression is a real illness at all.
This puts extreme pressure on those who are suffering. How can we expect those who need it to seek treatment when the world around them is standing by eagerly waiting to tell them they’re crazy and to just “not be sad anymore”?
When it’s all said and done, there is nothing worse than feeling like you can’t reach out for help. Asking for help does not show weakness; it shows strength in the form of wisdom, self-awareness, and bravery. Though Kid Cudi is in a place of pain right now, he has done something great for the world – he has not only reminded us that it’s okay to be wounded but has also led by example that it’s absolutely okay to admit that and ask for help.